It’s been a while.
Long enough for my widgets to stop working and all my social media account links to break. Long enough for pretty much everything about how WordPress works to change. Long enough for even my mother to stop visiting my blog.
Two and a half years, give or take.
Well, shit.
Before I stopped posting entirely, I slowed down because I was writing other places. Then my day job picked up, which was glorious and time consuming.
Somewhere in there (step)parenting got pretty un-fun and I didn’t want to write about it. Not one little bit. I wanted a break.
Gigs took me out of the house and out of town for extended periods of time. When I was home, I didn’t want to write. I wanted to clean.
Wanting to clean is my emotional equivalent of bleeding from the eyes.
I clean and I feel like I’m having an effect on something. For like a minute. Because the thing about having a houseful of kids is that you clean a spot and six people and two dogs come along behind you and lay new shit down in the clean place while you’ve moved on, erroneously believing that you finished back there.
My last gig had a pretty brutal production period, which wasn’t unusual. But for the first time ever, I didn’t bounce back after we opened. I kept waiting, and I never bounced. I looked up one day and realized I was down the rabbit hole again. Way the hell down the rabbit hole.
Well, shit.
For many months, I didn’t think about the blog at all. Then, when I did think about it, I was confused. I felt like I needed to define a new direction and have a plan, and I didn’t know what any of that meant.
Ultimately though, I remembered that that’s not why I started in the first place. I just wanted to write. When I started, I felt like I had something to say. I didn’t really care if people read it or not.
I’ve been gone so long, I just wanted to come back.
I’m also going to swear. So there’s that shit to look forward to.
JM Randolph, accidentalstepmom 
I feel ya, glad you’re still out there.
I have really missed you! Glad you’re back . . . sometimes when I don’t want to write the most is when I need to write the most.
You’re back! Yay! What does this mean for me?
Glory and untold riches, my friend.
I’ll wait. Bring it.
I really missed hearing about all your shit. Welcome back!
Shit, yeah.
Julie: I am SO SO SO delighted to get this and to read it. You’re back at your game and you’re wonderful at it. I need to clean this week; let’s see if I will. I’m as reluctant to do that as I am to write.
Love, love, love, Fran from NJ5.
xxxx
On Sun, Feb 12, 2017 at 12:34 PM, JM Randolph, accidentalstepmom wrote:
> JM Randolph posted: “It’s been a while. Long enough for my widgets to stop > working and all my social media account links to break. Long enough for > pretty much everything about how WordPress works to change. Long enough for > even my mother to stop visiting my blog. Two and a ” >
Welcome back! I was wondering what happened to you this being the only blog I’ve ever read. Bring It On!
Glad you are back! I have been the same with the posting….
How nice to see your smiling avatar again, even if it is looking up from a deep, deep rabbit hole.
I missed you, Peg!
Glad you’re back, I look forward to the swearing 🙂
YEAH!!! Welcome back!